Change is hard. We find our safe space, our comfort zone, and settle into the rest of our lives. And when the opportunity to grow presents itself, we can be wary of the process or ignore it altogether. I’m fascinated by human nature and how we approach the process of change. And for me, finding my engine for change has been a lifelong pursuit.
I never felt I was worthy of being good. And perfect was a place I’d never visit. I grew up as the last of a big family and felt like I never had what it took to be the best. I grew to be content with what I was given and felt grateful to have what I got. Sure it occurred to me to ask for more, but I was too afraid to ask because I didn’t believe I was worthy and deserving of more. So I settled for what I had and who I was and what happened to me.
Then I found comedy. Specifically improv. And it was like I found a door that was calling to me the whole time. And opened it. And the feeling I had after taking that first class is indescribable. I found my thing. My world. My calling. I found people who got me. I found ways of communicating that felt like forgotten language that I just naturally spoke. I found audiences that saw me… really saw me, and listened… really listened, and responded… really responded. I found a place where I learned to embrace myself, find who I truly am and what I truly wanted out of life and was encouraged to go after it and embrace it. But most of all that I truly deserved it. All of it.
During this time of growth and change I was working my day job at a global nonprofit based in DC. Loved the job, the people, and the mission. But I knew deep down it wasn’t really my thing. And I had this whole other life where I did belong and I was happy and I was making change not only for myself, but for my students. I was helping them to learn, grow, and discover their own engine for change. I had a choice to make… Continue leading two lives because that was what’s expected and I didn’t deserve or was too stupid or inexperienced to make it work. Or take a leap and focus my time on the thing that changed my life and I knew could change other lives.
So I chose the fun one. Scariest decision I ever made. But luckily I had a partner and a circle of support who was ready to help me get to where I needed to go. And immediately I saw things happen. More classes. More shows. More trainings and workshops. More opportunities for growth and expansion. And I was making money. I was paying my bills. I was successful. And I knew there were more facets to this new career I stepped into than were readily apparent. So I went digging. And read some books. And did some research. And asked some people. And I found coaching. And realized that was where my path was heading all along. Comedy and improv were the vehicle, and I finally climbed inside and hit the gas.
I took classes. graduated from the foundations program at Coach U. Began the MentorCoach program and am working toward a triple certification. Started my own coaching business. And began supporting people who are going through their own stretches of major change and development. I love seeing clients embrace their true stories, believe in themselves, and ask for what the truly want so they can get what they truly need. I see a future where more people excitedly embark on their own journeys of change, embrace who they are, insist on what they want, and become the best versions of themselves. And then inspire others to do the same. That’s the world I want to live in.